summer blonde

summer blonde

i don't work
at a card shop
but i could.
no man
buys these things
for himself.

you stand
at dairy queen
looking like
a peach
(is it your work uniform?)
while waiting for a
chicken strip basket a la mode.
i step into
the shadows,
check my gloss, and
dab a little
poisoned apple
to my lips.
they must be perfect
although you will
never kiss them
except in dirty fantasy.

blogger temptations

Stupid blogger tempting me with promises of an easier blog! Perhaps it will be better someday, but it's going to take some work to fix all the "upgrades" I just made. If your blog has disappeared from the sidebar, it will return! (Luckily I'm doing this at a time when I haven't been posting much. I'm hoping that I won't really have a lot of readers notice the weirdness of my remodled blog.)

your untouchable face

your untouchable face

winter is cold
and snowflakes fall
in sheets (like icing
onto doughnuts yet not as
sweet). they
coat my tounge
as i lift my face
skyward to the blackhole
night. it was a night
like this when i fell. when i got up
my hand was
cut. blood stained my
white glove. stumbling, wishing
i could move faster
out of the cold, i
slipped on ice. when
one is numb
she can easily avoid
the cold.

still life with Kabuki

still life with Kabuki

today is a chill stare.

pages are my mirror--
fun house (yet i do not laugh)--
a destorted version of me
to be sorted by factory workers in China
for seven cents an hour.

my mask is ceremic blue
with eyeholes wide enough
to see the past.
cheeks flecked with snowflakes
that cannot melt
even in summer.

"i love you (and not in a friendly way)"

"i love you (and not in a friendly way)"

rain turns to ice
during the one a.m. stumble
from the hard times bar.
i wish i could
kiss you. i dream
of being barechested in
your arms.
don't make me remember that she's waiting at home.
smile at me
and tell me how smart i am.

the mistake

the mistake

late night circles and squares
eyes blurred by oily lenses
and a head too filled
with hearts and stars
to remember to smile

end it all
before cheeks get too warm
lightly brushing fingertips
are a wonderful secret
that i must hide
from you (has anyone ever
written a poem about you?)

the first smile of the new year
might be the last
unless i can hold
the clouds in open arms

raindrop eyes or smooth gray pebbles [?] (poemoff 2)

raindrop eyes or smooth gray pebbles [?] (poemoff 2)

if a tree falls in the woods
will I be there to
hear it? light filters
slowly through sunsoaked pines
branches reaching
for lost memories.
they slip through
needles spread out--reaching
for something better--
a bigger forest.



Once again, my apologies to Mr. Zack. I have too much going on. Stupid Christmas season.

The title of this poem comes from "THEY CAN MISS" by Zack.

other way to move blood (poemoff 2)

other way to move blood (poemoff 2)

a sharp knife
can prick
or stab. you must
be careful or
beware. a gun can
shoot bullets, but
they can miss
tiny targets
(the heart is small).

i tap the window pane
with my forehead. The
glass is cool and damp.
one crack can
slice my finger,
oozing blood from the
shard. sometimes

i sit alone and
think of you.




The title of this poem comes from "OR HEART" by Zack.

beat i hear, comes from (poemoff 2)

beat i hear, comes from (poemoff 2)

tip top tap
tip top tap
drip drop drap
drip drop drap
tip top
tip top
splitter splatter

yo! ho! ho! (and a bottle of rum)


Zack, if this is too terrible to work with, I'll write another one. Maybe I'll write another one anyway and let you pick which one to use.

The title of this poem comes from "OR HEART" by Zack.

retreat (poemoff 2)

retreat (poemoff 2)

as if unluck was something
i could avoid
i stepped around the ladder
watching the black cat cross my
heart and hope to die

in the dark
it doesn't matter
(a cat is a cat when it's black)
but in shining sun or
gloomy fog (dewdrops clinging
to the grass) i step
around

break my leg
or heart
(or maybe it's
a fleshwound)

and i sit down
bathe in the sun
and tell secrets
to the wicked witch



The first line of this poem comes from Zack's "INSTEAD OF YOU."

cans, broken bottles that glitter (poemoff 2)

cans, broken bottles that glitter (poemoff 2)

toss you away
like so many
yellow McDonald's wrappers

cheeseburgers would be more satisfying

each second spent
eating chocolate

piling wrappers
next to my bedside

instead of you



The title of this poem comes from Zack's "HEAVEN'S LONELY STARS."

anything towards some other place (poemoff 2)

anything towards some other place (poemoff 2)

red sky at midnight--
blood red as my tears
reflecting in a pool of sludge.
tomorrow will be easier
than today
(which I guess was hard enough).

september anger
bubbles from the boiling pot on the stove
as i heat water for tea.
i did not ask for this.
you send
heaven's lonely stars
sealed in a shabby cardboard box
and they leak
out the sides
and stain the carpet with light.

and my twin bed,
empty enough for two,
sits alone.

The title of this poem comes from Zack's "DARK WORLD, GROWING DESERT: A SOLITARY MACHINE HUMS ON THE BEACH, AN ATOMIC FACTORY INSTALLED IN THE DESERT. "

early or fucked--i think only of endings (poemoff 2)

Sorry it's late.


early or fucked--i think only of endings (poemoff 2)

there is no silence
greater than
the heavy moment
after i hang up
the phone
when you
weren't finished
talking

The title of this poem comes from Zack's "THE STRESS SOAKED SYLLABLES."

eerie stepchild syndrome

eerie stepchild syndrome

cry as you dance and
prick blood from your fingers.

do you remember
the white barbie convertable

i got that christmas?
we played

until the sun came up
in whispered voices.

summertime left us
with barren trees of winter.

nowheregoing (poemoff 2)

I think Zack has either forgotten how to read or he cheated with the last poem on purpose. That's okay. I'll write my poem anyway.

nowheregoing (poemoff 2)

you repeat these words,
the stress soaked syllables
pulsing with preditory power.
i wish those words could be mine.

fuck me
you scream into the night,
and i answer
with a slap.
tuesdays are worth more
than saturdays
when drunken breath
fogs my glasses
and ruins already weakening eyes.


The title of this poem comes from "SEEING" by Zack.

my tree of tounges (poemoff 2)

my tree of tounges (poemoff 2)

eve made me a
crown of thorns
to christen my dry scalp
as i sway in a garden of my own content.
posion me with love
felt only by a man from heaven
gracing mortal angels
with heavyhandedsins
too numerous to name.

naked in the tomato patch,
i pluck these strange fruits,
shine them with my shirt,
and gather hidden whims
beneath my belt.

"sink," you say,
"your pretty white teeth
into deliciousness not
seen or heard
and you will know
the beauty of the world."
yet tomorrow's the apocolypse--
rain of crimes unforgiven--
but you lay sweetly
at my side and slither lies
through closed teeth.

The title and first line of this poem come from Zack's "IS NOT THE BEST THAT HEAVEN HAS."

tired of playing secondbest (poemoff 2)

tired of playing secondbest (poemoff 2)

the pastelpink rose
lying next to me
and dying
is not the best that heaven has
to offer
for my tears


The title for this poem comes from "FOR LACK OF ANY BETTER THING TO DO" by Zack.

the stars have not burnt my skin (poemoff 2)

the stars have not burnt my skin (poemoff 2)

whisper her your soul
in the soft wind of snowflakes
catching in eyelashes

i do not know your
memories of chest compressed
by days that are too long
and nights unremembered

the moon is dark
and yet i see
when i pull back my shade
the glistening white of
diamonds in the dust

The title of this poem comes from "YOU ARE A WARMRED SACK" by Zack.

Time is the womb of the hour. (poemoff 2)

Zack and I are doing a poemoff again. The rules are the same as before. The basic rule is that I will use a line from Zack's most recently written contest poem to title my poem. I'm too lazy to copy the complete rules here, but if you are interested, click my links for Zack's poems. I will link to each poem that I am responding to (and they will probably be good poems, so you should go read them).


Time is the womb of the hour.

each second
in a matrix moment
stretched thin in a superstraight filiment
of sadness

to clothe and
protect you,
your mother cooed
over your bedside
and yet could not
release you
from this pain
of seconds passed
too soon

you are a warmredsack
i am a knife
cutting and stabbing
and looking for

release


The title of this poem is from "IF YOU THINK YOUR TEEN MIGHT BE INTERESTED IN AUTOEROTIC ASPHYXIATION, WE URGE YOU TO TALK TO HIM ABOUT IT" by Graham Foust.

agoraphobia

agoraphobia

your love is a coffin,
a secret garden
(where nothing grows)

undressing her (with your eyes)

undressing her (with your eyes)

you exhale smoke like it's blood
spraying machinegunassult
across the room.
i've got your blood
under my fingernails.
i try to claw it off my skin
because day old secrets stain soon.

your smile is death,
a vomit smeared mirror
of tomorrows only dreamed,
and then tossed aside like dirty panties.
you smile and say
"everything's gonna be alright"
but it's a curse not a blessing.

superheroes never save the ones they love
because love is a shattered champagne flute
rubbed in shallow wounds.
superheroes can never run away
from glares that follow too long
and secrets they're burning to tell.

under the whether?

under the whether?

please do not say goodbye until the moon sets
i want to walk with you
take in the night through my pores

the lakeshore aches
because the waves miss the shore
winter comes too soon
and frozen water cracks underfoot

but still i can make snow angels
in the dust
remember secrets that you never told
and whisper them to the stars

if only...

if only...

i trace
grime slicked
bathroom walls
with my fingers
gently tapping,
loving,
like they would
my womb--
insignificant
imaginary
child housed within.

to mars direct

to mars direct

vermillion veins and canals
of mars's rivers run dry.
beds of fossilized lifeforms
crumble to dust
in the whipping, erroding wind.

f-u-c-k

f-u-c-k

fuck the sky
and the birds that fly in the sky

fuck the lake

fuck the trees
why do they lose their leaves every year

fuck the roof of this building
and the snowflakes that fall so softly i can't hear them
even if i press my ear to the wall
and listen to the grinding gears
that hum and sway

fuck the stars
that i can't see because i'm inside
and it's day time anyway
and the sky is overcast

fuck my left sock
because it's got a small hole
and i can feel the shoe as i slide my foot
and rearrange my body

fuck the telephone
that rings rings rings all day and night
because i refuse to answer

fuck the grass
that icy frozen pussy
coats with snow and doesn't
ask about tomorrow

fuck my rage
because it feeds itself
and me

I held it truth, with him who sings

I held it truth, with him who sings

do you whisper with leaves
dead and whirling in wind?

i woke up this morning
and missed you although
you'd spent the night
tangled in my arms
like tree branches bare.

crystal teardrops sharp as knives
cut my face,
but will tomorrow be the same?
glass lodged
in my eye with no beauty to behold.
hatred
like a contact lense
that lets me see and makes me see.

and this morning makes
my glaciertears melt
leaves lakes of lusting
that sunrise will
mean a new day


The title of this poem comes from In Memoriam A.H.H. by Alfred Lord Tennyson.

under a gunmental sky

under a gunmental sky

rain attacks in wet, heavy drops
like little bombs from heaven.
angels at war with earth
fling drops like stones from slingshots.
the warmachine clicks on
with a rumble of sootblack smoke.
under a gunmetal sky
no one's sure if they exist
or are merely passing through
strings of todays like pearls
on a princess' neck.

The title of this poem comes from "Touch Me" by Stanley Kunitz.

And because it is my heart

And because it is my heart

black beats stomp crimson
you are my tomorrow

yesterday's flowers drop petals
on the mahogany tabletop
shining with pledge.
i press my tounge to the wood
licking bitter lemon cleanser
and leave a streak
that will have dried
by morning.

once, the roses were new--
unpricked thorns of unpicked beauty--
and now they rest in the
vasegrave of cobaltblue.

you murdered something beautiful for love.


The title of this poem is from "In the desert" by Stephen Crane.

if he christens me indiscriminately

I've got a new idea for a series of poems. Similar to the poem off that MrZack and I were involved in over the summer, I am going to take my titles from published poems. I'm hoping that I can write at least three poems a week in this manner.

if he christens me indiscriminately

semen crusted condoms
lining trashcans of indeterminate size.
i'll give you a prize
if you can guess how many condoms
are in that bag
before i take out the trash tomorrow morning.

The title of this poem comes from "His Maculate Erection" by Bryan D. Dietrich.

comfort film

comfort film

greenline bus pulls up with a pffft
and there you are
wind tossing your hair
like chaotic salad